I can hardly believe that today is Christmas Eve. This year has gone so quickly. Christmas is so different without my Grandmother. I know her spirit will live on, but I'm definitely missing her this year. So glad I can be with my mom though. I love that I have my whole family together. It's been nice to hang out with both brothers, and as of Sunday, all 4 brothers! Can't wait.
I've been trying to fit in all the Jaime time possible knowing our relationship is about to change (in a good way, but nevertheless-change).
Last week, he was sick and had to take a five day antibiotic to feel better, this week-I've been desperately trying to stay well. My throat has been hurting and I've been pretty congested. My attempts as rest have for the most part kept it at bay. My waking hours have been spent gargling salt water, drinking lemon/honey mixtures, blowing my nose, and lying around. I've also been taking some pretty monumental naps.
Today is Friday, I went to the doctor on Wednesday to find out that all the contractions-even though they at times have been doubling me over and stealing my breath.....have done NOTHING!!! Baby B is perfectly content high up in my womb downing all the holiday goodies. So, the plan as of now is: I get checked again on Monday, if there is still no cervical change- then I'll be admitted on Monday night and given something to "ripen" the cervix. It's called Cervidil. Then, on Tuesday morning, they will start me on Pitocin to induce labor. I've said all along that if I have to be induced, I'll probably be getting the epidural to help-so that's pretty much where we stand as of today. A big part of me, actually, all of me- would rather skip all these interventions and wait all of this out. Let him come, when he is ready. People say, "well, aren't you miserable and just ready for this to be over?" and really, I'm not miserable, nor do I feel like he should be forced out. I don't want to evict him!! haha I just feel more like-"he'll come when he is ready." I also know that with the more interventions taken, the higher the risk of a "section." I do however understand that while I'm on the bloodthinners, they can have adverse affects on my placenta and I do not want baby in harms way at all!
Anyways, nothing is set in stone, for all I know, I could go into labor between now and Monday. God is in control, not me. I just have to rely on and trust in him. For now, I appreciate all the prayers for all of us.
Here are some pics of the nursery and a couple from Christmas day:
The nursery was painted by my sweet friend Wendi with "Lucky Buckets"
